I want this so bad!

I want to be able to take care of ny family. My husband just keeps going down hill its one thing after another. I need the Lord to smike upon me. I need this! Not a want a need! Here is my current project kund of late release but my mother in in law died two weeks ago. It really surprised me and hit me hard aling with my husbands suprise pacemaker surgery. i got to sew today something my mother and I both love.